“Watch your words, they might become your actions… watch your actions, they might become your habits… watch your habits they might become your being” I was struck by this phrase spoken by a certain priest who is a friend of mine. It simply shows how powerful words are and its influence to man’s life. Words can create relationship. It is somewhat like a hanging bridge that connects two dead-end roads. It is one of the many factors that make us fully human. It is an element for unity but it can also be a cause of dispute and division. It can cause us pain more than a two edged sword that is pierce in our hearts.
Our words are deeply rooted on our thinking. What we utter was just an effect of our thinking and this thinking process was a product of our inner passion. Every word that we uttered and every action we did are just concrete manifestations of our passion. It is the passion that prompts us to move just as Jesus’ life was centered on proclaiming and building the Kingdom of God here on earth because he was moved by His passion. Just like a runner in the race track who runs with all his might and along the way there are obstacles that needs to be hurdled just to attain his passion to win.
My life is not so much filled with interesting stories. I am a simple person with simple ambitions in life. I have nothing to brag since in the first place I have nothing and perhaps I would say I am nothing. As I am writing this paper, I am not really enthusiastic since I don’t have life stories to tell that makes the reader fascinated. But this nothingness was filled by the grace of God and my life revolved around this motto since I was in college “what I have is a gift from God, what I would be is my gift to God”. I received many graces from God in various occasions and through different people whom I met along my journey. What I have and who I am right now is God’s way of filling the nothingness that I feel deep within.
When I was in college, I was not sure really about my vocation. I was not really convinced that priesthood was meant for me because I experienced moments of dryness, crisis and of struggles in many ways it was then after my regency that things came so clear like a water that is why my life revolves around this motto”what I have is a gift from God, what I would be is my gift to God… I don’t know where I am going but I know I’m on my way”. My college life was mixed with different experiences. Some experiences make me like an innocent man walking in the busy street of the city. It made me lost like a wanderer searching for something that is why I said I don’t know where I am going but it is clear to me now that those experiences that I have been through will equipped me for my further journey. I went to of different crossroads which I thought before I was passing the other way. I was wrong, those rough roads are still part of my journey and I was sure ,after my regency, that I am still trudging the same way – I know I’m on my way.
“I don’t know where I am going but I know I’m on my way”. I intend not to include this phrase right now because I am pretty much sure of my vocation; I am totally convince with deep faith that God is calling me to this special and noble vocation. I know it is not easy to respond to what I believe but I would really stand to my belief and make the most of what God has given to me. I have nothing, what I have is a gift from God and whatever I can be in the future is my gift to God as a way of thanking Him for filling this empty self of mine.†