Sunday, July 13, 2008

“Silent Scream”

I laugh, I talk too much, I drink and worst I love night life (disco lang). I am a man of leisure. People describe me with such qualities. It may not be strange to other people for these qualities would probably common by most of the people living in a secular life. Indeed people outside appreciated me for who I am but not in the seminary. My life is somewhat contrary to what people perceive as a seminarian. I was branded as noisy person who always get drunk when weekend comes.

Living in the seminary is a serious journey and so it follows that it really needs a serious response. Considering my personality perhaps people would think that I am incapable in responding such serious demands. I may be judge as shallow person with only jokes and senseless thoughts in mind. I am not affected with this because I know myself more than they do. I am more than what they think. Human person cannot be judge with what can be perceived. They are absolutely wrong, and so, I just want people to know that I can do greater things and not just imprisoned by such description. I am noisy but I have a peaceful heart and mind who knows how to balance things. I talk too much but I know how to listen when somebody needs me and most especially to listen into the depths of my being. I drink and frequently get drunk but this is my way of recharging whenever I feel exhausted and a time to be with myself. I sometimes find myself in disco bars but I also find myself always in prayer and meditation. Though I look like very worldly through my words and actions I still maintain my intimate relationship with my God.

Through this personality I have gained lots of experiences and build up relationships to people I met in all walks of life. Every bit of experiences that I have with these people is an opportunity for me to reflect, to pray and to love.


Miss said...

You are Great Brother James!

Mae said...

You are definitely right! May God bless ur heart's desires..=) and one thing..i love what u wrote..=)